Paris Hilton said that ‘it still gives me like post-traumatic stress disorder’ to discuss her sex tape which was filmed when she was just 20-years-old.
She and her then-boyfriend Rick Salomon, who is 13 years her senior, starred in the tape which was leaked in 2003 and which Rick himself began to sell in 2004.
‘That will always be something that will hurt me for the rest of my life,’ she confessed during an interview with Vanity Fair.
Looking back: Paris Hilton said that ‘it still gives me like post-traumatic stress disorder’ to discuss her sex tape which was filmed when she was just 20; pictured last November
‘It’s always there in the back of my mind and kind of, when it happened it was just – people were so mean about it to me,’ she said.
‘And just the way that I was spoken about just on all the nightly talk-shows, and all the media, and just everyday having to see things, and with my family was just heartbreaking, where I would be in tears every single day.’
Paris candidly revealed: ‘I didn’t wanna leave my house, didn’t wanna show my face. I just felt like my life was over.’
The heiress added that ‘I just always had looked up to just these amazing women like Princess Diana and I just felt like when he did that to me, took that all away from me and people would never look at me the same.’
Throwback: She and her then-boyfriend Rick Salomon, who is 13 years her senior, starred in the tape which was leaked in 2003; they are pictured during their relationship
She said: ‘Obviously it was humiliating. That’s a private experience between two people. You think that you love someone and you trust them, and to have your trust betrayed like that and for the whole world to be watching and laughing, and even more hurtful to me, for people to think that I did that on purpose, that just killed me.’
Paris went on: ‘It just made me just – it was, it still gives me like post-traumatic stress disorder even like talking about it. And yeah, just, that was a part that was, you know, obviously it was humiliating for people to see all of that, but the fact that people would think that I would want that or do that on purpose just really angers me.’
She said: ‘And then after I just noticed there was a lot of celebrities purposely doing it, which then it made it look even more like I did too, and it was almost like this blueprint to become famous.’
The Simple Life star acknowledged: ‘And then since then there’s been others which have been leaked by, you know, their exes, and that’s a different story. But the way that I was made a villain back then because of something that someone did to me, and now is just a completely different story.’
‘I was just so like in love with him’: In her documentary This Is Paris released last year she likened her experience with the sex tape saga to being ‘electronically raped’
Paris argued: ‘Like if that would’ve happened today it would not be, you know, what it was back then. So you know, I’m again happy that things have changed and that people are realizing that is just, the woman in the situation who is the victim should not be treated like that or spoken about like that.’
She and Rick filmed the sex tape in 2001 and after a three-minute version of it was leaked by Kahatani Ltd. in 2003 they both sued the company.
Rick also released a longer version of the video and plugged it to NBC in February 2004: ‘It‘s 18 minutes of full color and I think everybody will enjoy it.’
Two months later Rick struck a deal with the porn studio Red Light District Video to sell a 45-minute version with the name 1 Night In Paris, Today reported.
Hand in hand: Paris is currently engaged to dashing businessman Carter Reum, announcing the news the day before Valentine’s Day this year; pictured last September in Cabo
At the time it was reported Rick was paying Paris $400,000 and a cut of the back-end profit but her camp said she would give the money to charity, per E!.
In 2013 when TMZ approached Paris as she emerged from LAX they brought up the tape and she insisted that she ‘never made a dollar’ off it.
Rick has been married three times since his relationship with Paris, once to Shannen Doherty and then twice to Pamela Anderson.
Meanwhile Paris is currently engaged to dashing businessman Carter Reum, announcing the news the day before Valentine’s Day this year.
The way they were: Rick has been married three times since his relationship with Paris, once to Shannen Doherty and then twice to Pamela Anderson; he and Pam are pictured in 2013 in LA
In her documentary This Is Paris released last year she called Rick ‘my first real relationship’ and said she was 18 when they became an item.
‘I was just so like in love with him and I wanted to make him happy. And I just remember him just pulling out the camera and he was kind of pressuring me into it, like: “Oh, you’re so boring. Like, do you want me to call someone else? No one will ever see it,”‘ she alleged in a confessional.
She likened the experience to being ‘electronically raped,’ and her mother Kathy recalled being ‘in bed a lot’ in the aftermath of the leak.
Paris’ little sister Nicky, who was in her early 20s when the tape leaked, shared: ‘We lived in a hotel where the New York Daily News and New York Post was on everyone’s front door down the whole hall, so on days where it was a cover story I would run down the hall first and flip every newspaper over so they didn’t have to see it.’
Family matters: In last year’s documentary Paris’ mother Kathy Hilton (pictured) recalled being ‘in bed a lot’ in the aftermath of the leak